I’ve been without internet for about a week. In that time my ex husband has called three times threatening to come after me. He has threatened my 84 year old mother, and my two sisters as well.
I spent the hours from 2:00 am until 9:00 am speaking to the Santa Fe, NM police and the Duncan, OK police and the Oklahoma Highway Patrol, and the Stephens county district attorney’s offices trying to get a reponse on Thursday morning. Not that I felt that all of these places had jurisdiction, this is just the phone call trail I was placed on as police departments tried to pass responsibility to someone else.
I’ve also been trying to follow up on my stolen dog. The Santa Fe district attorney’s office has been examining that issue. They really don’t seem to be very interested in dealing with getting justice for the theft of my dog either.
It’s a very frustrating process, getting entangled with someone who doesn’t treat you well. The problem is that your ability to realize how badly you are being treated is continuously eroded until you don’t know how to protect yourself effectively and there are all too many people out there waiting for someone to abuse. There are very few who care and want to end the problem who effectively do anything about it.
I don’t know what it was in me that felt like these two men I loved ever wanted to change or ever wanted to be better. I don’t know why I didn’t tell them to get lost and get better on their own and to find someone else when they did improve upon their behavoior.
The last time Cory came back, he apologized for the past and told me he had matured. It was one more lie.
I hope that if anyone out there is reading this who happens to be in an abusive relationship reads this that it will make one think. I hope it might inspire someone else to get out before suffering so much damage. There isn’t a system in effect that really can be depended upon to help victims of domestic violence even with all of the systems in operation out there. The world is operating at less than a snails pace in providing justice and safety for victims of domestic violence.
I’m feeling so tired and run down from trying to get away from violent people who it seems like our justice system protects instead of protecting me. There is no logic anywhere in this.