I’ve been missing a while from writing. So many things have happened. C moved out and stole my dog, about $12,000 worth of jewelry, a sewing machine, my climbing gear, my albums, a Martin Guitar, and I’m sure items yet to be discovered.
I had a bike wreck that resulted in a concussion, a broken rib, and a collapsed lung. I moved in with A to heal, and I have stayed.
The damage I have suffered may be irreparable. C has tried to get s restraining order in Oklahoma to keep me away from my own dog.
My ex has temporarily lost custody of my son to DHS, and is living with my mother. My son evidently took the car keys from my ex after he drove them to my mothers intoxicated. I’m not sure what type of battle ensued however, it was bad enough for my mother to call the police. Knowing how important it is to keep appearances, and how few the times are that the police are called for domestic violence in that neighborhood, it must have been pretty bad.
I’m in a safe place, with someone who loves me very much. He is my best friend, and I love him. He treats me gently, and kindly, and with love, and respect. He never utters a cross word. I’m dealing with night terrors, and anxiety attacks that go on all day and all night. I’m further damaged by everything that was taken from me, and from harassment coming from C and an old attorney who charged me $60,000 for two months work in which I lost custody of my children. Other than that incident about two weeks after hiring him, we were never in court. I owed him about $7,000, and he is trying to take everything I have which isn’t much.
I really don’t know how to recover from this. I literally don’t know how to put one foot in front of the other at this point, and I don’t know if I will ever recover to a point of satisfactory functionality.
I once had a half a million dollar practice. Now I don’t even have a car that is drivable, and people are still taking from me.
I want people to know. If someone is treating you badly, get out. Don’t fool yourself into staying because you committed to a marraige with an abusive person. Don’t stay with someone who is “trying to change” for your relationship. Let them change by themselves. Tell them to come back when they can prove they have changed. The cost is too high to be with people like this. It doesn’t matter how strong you think you are or even how strong you are, it will kill your soul if you stay. I don’t know how to emphasize this enough.